Yeah, we've talked about it. She suggests I 'sit' with the feelings and try to let them tell me what they're about. I'm not getting anywhere with that.

Yeah, probably building the defenses would detach me too much. I will talk to T about it tomorrow. I'm at my wit's end. I really really don't know how to do this.

I asked her where can I get the courage. She said it will come when the time is right like it has before. I have been able to share with T some things I never would have thought I'd be able to so maybe she's right. But how long do I wait for courage to show up?