I'm also convinced I was bipolar as a child. Every report card came back with straight A's and a comment "lacks emotional control". Brilliant but erratic. I never got depressed till I hit puberty and then life was a roller coaster till I hit 21 when I was finally committed with post partum mania. But getting through menopause has really helped. I'm still bipolar, but I can keep it under control, unless people know better. The long life of a bipolar woman. LOL

And Original Poster, I have left the blame game behind. But you may need to do some therapy to come to grips with what you went through. My parents were always in denial that something was wrong with me. Until I completely flipped out, that is.