I've always been emotionally sensitive. When I was a child, I cried whenever I had the slightest indication that someone might be thinking something bad about me. Now, I have certain issues that trigger my inner rage more than others. Due to a history of depression and depersonalization that stemmed from the depression, I have a hard time feeling "real". So, whenever anyone does anything that implies that I'm not as real and worthy as everyone else, I get very upset.

Since sixth grade, I have been a rather quiet person. Many people think that, because of this, I A). Have no personality or sense of humor, B). Am naturally meek and mild, C). Am a simple, one-dimensional person (i.e. being shy is my entire identity) and/or D).Don't have a need for companionship, love and respect.

These attitudes towards quiet people make me furious. I fantasize about getting over my anxiety and telling people who treat me this way just how I feel about it, which usually includes using certain four-letter words that they probably don't think I even know.

But that will never happen, so I'll continue to be treated like a stupid little invisible child indefinitely.

Question for other emotionally sensitive bipolar people: do you tend to ultra rapid cycle, or do you have frequent mixed states? I think those of us that do are more susceptible to being emotionally reactive.