The last four days have been really bad, I actually hurt myself and have been scared someone will see my wrist. I feel so stupid that I got so upset and angry at myself that I did it. I have been neglecting to take my meds and take care of myself at all really. Today I feel a bit better I am at least dressed and feel ok enough to tell you all how stupid I have been. I am seeing my T tomorrow and I am really scared. I cannot decide whether or not to fessup or hide what I have done. If I tell her she will want to discuss the reasons why and I am not sure I want to yet. If I cover it then it might happen again if I get upset or even worse . I think I will fessup I cant lie to someones face ever and the first thing she always asks is what have I been doing. I am taking my meds again The thing with that is I run out then feel lousy and cant get myself together enough to go out and get them. I need organizing I think. And Motivating. Its a catch 22 I need it but I am the only one who can give it.