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Originally Posted by moonbeam2
i never get a break its taking everything i have to do this,just 3 days ago i was ok ,i was least abel to smile at my boys i had that for just 3 days then i wake up & no motivation sad i wanna go hide in fact i do in my bed room i hardly see my husband cause im always hiding this life sucks i just recently found this web sight hopping it was the answers to all my prayers it was gonna take my depression away,the mind is a powerfull thing its just gonna do what ever it wants &i dont beleave there is a cure im stuck with my depression comes pain my leggs hurt to the point i wannna cut them off & now my teeth its like phantum pain i guess im sorry i gotta go i just cant do this anymore !
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Hi moonbeam I've just read your post and it is how I feel,I never get a break from these stupid cycles,but I'm also physically disabled so after the high I also have extreme pain throughout my body.
I always say I exist I do not live but then I look at my children and think how lucky I should feel,but some times I feel the most un luckiest person in the world,I think why me? I've never hurt anyone.
Thankfully they are good kids and they like it when my high episodes are here as they think we have good fun,and when I'm low I try and hide it as best as I can.
I'm not just saying it but this website has literally saved me as no one I know has any sort. Of depression or mental health problems,stick with it and read some of the posts then you will see there are so many people in the same position as us,post threads or you can always send me a private message if that's more suitable for you?
Your not alone and as time goes on you start to know people,I don't know many but I will look out for you now.
Hope your a little better
JK