Thanks for your responses all, I love this forum! It's now Wednesday and I'm still doing well. I just really wonder what suddenly clicked in me. My ex that cheated on me was texting me trying to see me again. I told him that that can not and will not happen, but I don't hate him anymore. I carried around that hate since it happened in like 08'. I have let it go now and that fact that he's trying to come back makes me see that he KNOWS he messed up. I told him he would one day. Maybe letting that go has helped me a lot. Hmmm?