I was the same, did not experience emotions up until last year (when I was 29). All I can say is, the world is a LOT simpler and easier to handle without emotions! But ofcourse, you also can't experience good emotions (as well as bad), so yeah that is the downside. My therapist tried to get me to turn them back on again - she said first I will experience the bad ones, and then come the good ones. So the bad ones got turned back on, and then she put me in the too hard basket and stopped my therapy, so I'm stuck like this - aaargh! But I would really love to experience the good ones that everyone is always ranting and raving on. That would be great!
I dunno if it helps or not but I would describe the closest thing I could come up with to the emotion. Like for instance, I would say "it feels like acid is going through my veins and leeching out of my pores" and I dont know how but she came up with some ideas about what emotion that could be. I think she said that one was frustration? Or anxiety or something. And some of them were kinda obvious when we verbalised it, like I said "I have the urge to make someone bleed" and ofcourse that was anger. The positive ones would be harder though, I would expect.
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