Not sure if I am posting this in the correct forum but regardless....

It seems as though many times when I am alone, my mind races with many thoughts most of which seem to end with an embarrassing situation, either real or imagined. Once that thought enters my head, I will blurt out a swear, or perhaps a sentence like, "I love you (insert name)". I believe I do this as a subconscious means to "snap me out of" the moment so as not to feel the feelings the embarrassment caused, or causes, or to just end the momentary thought before it completes.

Sometimes I blurt out a curse word or I'll say something like "I hate you..". Other times I will say out loud, "I love you (insert ex gf's name)" or some other name. I must interject at this point that I am happily married and have no interest in any past gf's. I am also not supressing any deep down desires for my ex....believe me on that.

When I do this most is when I am by myself and therefore, dealing with the gazillion thoughts that race thru my mind every minute. Sometimes my mind is like a runaway train. And eventually, the thoughts come back to an embarrassing moment, or a situation I make up in my mind that would embarass me, and I blurt something out. Sometimes it is said in a soft voice, sometimes louder. On occassion I blurt something out and one of my kids or my wifes hears me and will ask me what I was saying. Most times I can cover up what I said with some kind of excuse about what I was talking about. One time I was in the bathroom and, in the middle of an embarrasing thought, I blurted out, "I hate you!". My wife happened to be walking by the bathroom at that second and heard me and she thought I was referring to her which I wasn't. So we had a big to-do about that. Of course I"m scared to death that I will blurt out my ex-gf's name and she will hear me and she'll freak.

These things happen to me most when I am really stressed. Seems as though the stress instigates the thoughts in my mind which in turn have me blurting things out more often.

As I've stated above, I'm thinking I blurt things out to snap me out of the thought in my head but I can't seem to control it. I have thought about talking to my wife about it but I"m too ashamed to tell her.

Anyways I'd like to know if this happens to you and if you have any techniques to control these outbursts? Thank you.