It didn't work< I tried to force myself into the memory so I could be done with it and ended up throwing up. trembling shaking crying sobbing SICK this just IS not going to go away is it? What is messing with my head is that I have a lot of friends who knew me when I first started remembering on some level i guess and everyone I am seeking support from and thye are very supportive people , they have all said the same thing that they already knew or suspected this all along I am sooo messed up i cannot sleep.