Hi There First post...

I have a problem...

I need to accept my college course - asap - but am having difficulties. I want to go on a do Psychology but i fear coz i suffer MH problems (Social Anxiety, Erythrophobia, Depression, HOCD & Intrusive Thoughts), there is there is no point in me accepting this choice. The other choice i have is Forensic & Enviromental Analysis.

Psychology, i want to pick this. I want to work with people and i want to defo do something in this area. Problem is - erythrophobia. Erythrophobia, you may not have heard of it, but its a fear of blushing. It goes beyond a fear, i actully blush at the drop of a hat. It happens at the most innappropiate situations. Now imagine me working as a therapist or a guidence counsellor and i blush............well actully strike, that i may not even pass the emotional critera for the jobs...

Forensic & Enviromental Analysis is the other. This course would be an advantage for jobs. There would be more jobs readily available for me in this area. Plus im not directly working with people, so blushing and anxiety will be less of an issue in the future - regarding work.

Question - do i go for what i want to do - Psychology - regardless of how the future is? Or do i go where im safe in the future for a job and my MH?

Im not asking you to answer those questions - there are what im asking myself.

Im lost and confused and i am actully, to be honest really upset and stressed over this. See the future, the thoughts of it............well i cant deal with the thoughts of it.

Some advice would be apprichated & im sorry if my post sounds stupid, but this is a big deal for me.

Tnx for reading