Hi PuffyPrue...

I'm so sorry that you are suffering...it seems that there are a lot of people hurting an awful lot this week. I don't know what it is...

I noticed that you mentioned that your sleep is off again. I know that when I have multiple nights of not sleeping or only sleeping a little or just off and on...my depression worsens and then it becomes a vicisious cycle in and of itself. Perhaps, if you could concentrate on just one thing..it would be to try really hard to put yourself on a sleep cycle again and make yourself stay up and if need be ask for a short rx of meds to help you get some well-deserved rest and let subconscious do its thing. It will really do you so much good to get even a few good night's sleep. Make sure and turn off everything in the room and get it just right and make yourself go to bed at a reasonable hour and get up again for just a few days in a row and see if that doesn't help a bit..

Another thing that might help a little bit, that helps me a lot, is a really good emotion list. I've got one that's like 2pp long that really makes me pinpoint the emotions when I'm journaling to get real specific and make me dig a little deeper for answers as to the most basic fears or sources of anger that are holding me back. If you'd like a copy of mine, feel free to pm me. I really like journaling on the computer where I can paste and cut the ideas together after I have kind of free-handed my thoughts so I can then look for patterns in the swirls of thought and begin to see where my anxiety or fear or anger is really coming from and perhaps take it to the mat, or my T as the case may be.

Don't know if either of these ideas appeal at all with you..but they might be worth a little try. I know it is so very hard to get into anything anyone suggests when you are this low. Just know that they only come from my hope for some relief and healing and a little hope for you...hang in there little one...


wysteria Blue