Hi MyUserName, welcome to Psych Central!

Two things that have never worked out very well for me have been:

1. Choosing (or avoiding) a course (of study or action) to fit with what I saw as my limitations. In grade school and high school I hated writing assignments and didn't expect to ever be able to write well or to enjoy it. It was that much worse when I had to write under a time limit in a room with other students. Clearly (I thought) I needed to stick to careers involving lab work and equations. Something like psychology, although I was interested in it, had to be out of the question -- way too much talking and writing involved.

2. Counting on having overcome (somehow ) a perceived limitation by the time it would start seriously getting in my way. "I hate to write but I do want to go to college. Maybe by the time I get to college I won't mind writing so much." Whenever I did that I'd usually end up wondering, "Now what do I do?!" and blaming myself both for the still-undealt-with limitation and for the bad planning that must've gotten me into that situation.

What's turned out to work best for me has been to follow, not some plan calculated years ahead to yield me the greatest returns with the least grief, but... my interests. When I got into psychology after all and started finding myself in situations where I felt I had something to say but the only possible way to say it was by writing a paper -- I found I actually enjoyed the challenge of putting the paper together and tweaking it till it said what I meant as well as I could get it to. Nowadays I spend a lot of my free time (and some of my working time) at the computer... writing!

I know you not only don't enjoy blushing but apparently find it triggering. Still -- can you, by any chance, imagine the possibility of blushing occasionally, treating it as something (like your hair color) that just happens, and still getting your job done?