I realized that after I posted, I am pretty oblivious in session, unfeeling, etc, not looking for sympathy here or anything, just stating facts - and that a lot of people really do get much more upset in session on a regular basis than I do. if I get a little squirt of tears it's a national holiday. but I still had the foggy notion that leaving miserable was somehow better and more therapeutic and meant I was working harder, than leaving happy. So for whatever that's worth to other like-minded simpletons, if any exist! Don't be COY! (tee-hee!)