Good going on your 6 months of sober time.

Even tho I use available resources like; reading about addiction treatment, attending self-help meetings and other recovery related activities, I don't feel any the worse off that I need help with my new sober lifestyle. I think of antabuse as an available resource like the ones I use.

For me, it is my responsibility whether I get and stay sober/clean or not. I need to be aware of all the recovery tools I can in order maintain my commitment to healing. I feel you are being very responsible too by doing what you need to do...there is nothing less about that than any other way people recover, on their own or not.