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Aug 24, 2011, 06:22 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2011
Posts: 110
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Owie, ouch, ouch, ouch, ouch, ow, ow, OW! (read from the bottom up)
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Sent: 2011-08-24 17:00:27
I just reread my email from last night. Actually, I didn't think it was that bad. I was expressing truths that would have, at some point, needed to be expressed. I agree that I will need to do all the work in regaining your trust and making you feel loved. There will be work you will have to do too though. I don't know what it was that people said to you. I'm sorry that I'm causing you to feel upset. My past is my past. You knew what was in it. I need you, I miss you, I love chatting with you every day... but I may have to cut myself of from you for a while. Today was a hell of a day and I really just need someone to talk to about it... if it can't be you, I don't know if I can talk to you at all.
Reply Received: 2011-08-24 16:38:25
I do give you sympathy and will in the future. Right now though, I am having a tough time handling myself, Gina. Look, I hope we can get through this but I do think you should work harder than me. At least in terms at convincing me that I am not an idiot or a cockhold or fool for still loving you. If you can't agree with that we need to arrange for me to get my things and so forth. I do believe I have been showing you more than you might have expected from a person who loves another by wanting to work this out. But your email last night and this information today has crippled me to the very essence of what I see as love.
Sent: 2011-08-24 16:30:15
I do truly love you and see you differently than those other guys.
Sent: 2011-08-24 16:28:45
That isn't why I'm having a miserable day and week. It has been outside factors that I have no control over for the most part. I was hoping for a little sympathy - will you ever be able to give it to me given what I've done?
Reply Received: 2011-08-24 16:23:43
Gina, here is where we differ at the moment. First, you saying you are having a miserable day is nothing new. You say it often. Secondly, you having a miserable day or week is because of something you brought upon yourself if it involves all the self discovery you are going through. The hurt and misery I am having is brought on by you and what you did to me. I am completely innocent in that respect. So my hurt, my agony, my emptiness and confusion is worthy of sympathy at the least since it is something that I-or any truly loving partner- should experience. Your past is your past but what you did while we were together makes all those past activities have more meaning since they were one night stands. I never cared what you did before we met until now. Until I have been made to lookl like an idiot. Until I thought I had found someone who really loved me and saw me different than every other guy she "had".
Sent: 2011-08-24 16:12:30
I'm having a miserable day in the midst of a wretched week. I'm sorry you're hurting but so am I.
Reply Received: 2011-08-24 16:11:25
And yes, in case you are wondering, people's comments and reactions to your cheating on me are beginning to really eat at me.
Sent: 2011-08-24 16:10:12
Yes, 2007 was the first year we made out. It was different with you - I really liked you... which is why I didn't let it go further than just making out with you. Listen, I'm sorry but that's all in the past. I'd like to know who these people are who have such low opinions of me so I can not be friends with them, if you wish to share that information. I am genuinely sorry I cheated on you - that was not just another one night stand with someone I kind of liked. I fell in love with you in 2008 and my feelings haven't changed. I'm sorry if this information hurts you.
Reply Received: 2011-08-24 16:07:32
It was before but now all that comes into play considering what you did to me.
Reply Received: 2011-08-24 16:06:00
I have this feeling that you never really loved me. I was just another for you. I am not that type of guy and I started dating you because I fell in love with you.
Sent: 2011-08-24 16:04:49
[details omitted] Those are the people you know. And, yes, they could probably all be considered one night stands since I never dated any of them. I don't know what to say other than it was before we were together. It was all part of that bevavior we've talked about before. I did kind of like ***** and ********.
Reply Received: 2011-08-24 16:04:12
2007? Isn't that the first time we did something? Gina, I have been dealt a lot of hard ones and I am not sure what to do. Now that people know what you did to me I am finding out a lot. No one seems surprised by it at least they don't show it. They seem more surprised that we even started dating than you cheating on me.
Reply Received: 2011-08-24 15:59:52
Really because the ******** and the Chris from SC are replusive. If it is Sam that is fine.
Sent: 2011-08-24 15:54:34
Phew. Okay. Umm. Yes. [details omitted]
Reply Received: 2011-08-24 15:52:14
Sure. Protection included? One night stands? I am a sucker, huh?
Sent: 2011-08-24 15:50:35
Do you just want a "yes" or do you want to know what and with whom?
Reply Received: 2011-08-24 15:49:58
Well, that gives me an idea there.
Sent: 2011-08-24 15:48:01
You sure you want to know the answer?
Reply Received: 2011-08-24 15:43:55
Have you ever slept with, and I mean had any sexual activity with, Andy *** Chris ******** or anyone I may know besides Matty?
Sent: 2011-08-24 15:40:23
Sure.
Reply Received: 2011-08-24 15:38:57
So there has been talks today of who's slept with who in this town over the years and it has my interest peaked. Can I ask you a question concerning this topic?
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