Ok, I'll get my reply in before you delete......bet it felt good to get that out & express your feelings. It's important to let our feelings out & acknowledge that we are feeling what we feel......take a breath & go on from there....just like you are doing. With all you have been going through, I am sure that what you are expressing is absolutely appropriate.

Hope you can work through the stressful situation & come out in the end with the best results possible for you.

Praying that God will guide you through this stressful time & that his will will be worked through the trials you are going through.