I relate very much to feeling "annoying" and when I feel this way, I somehow make it even harder for myself and others.

When I feel this way, I withdraw, I feel frustrated, sad, shut down, ashamed.

I have felt like this most of my life.

Then it seems like ppl want to help me and then again, there goes the vicious cycle:

"See, people keep coming at you cause you are so needy."

Then I withdraw more.

I guess often I break this cycle by trying to fight the shame, but sometimes it still gets me.

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