(((sarahlarissaa)))

He is the loser ~ not you. You don't deserve to be treated as though you're invisible. You do deserve a decent relationship, with someone who respects and cares for you!

Following the "main girl" around isn't healthy, you're right. And, really, she shouldn't be the one who you're primarily angry with. Letting some anger out towards that girl isn't going to make you feel any better. After all, it was your boyfriend who made the mistake. (I'm not saying that I wouldn't have anything against her, I probably would.) What I am saying is : You are letting your boyfriend call the shots, even though he cheated on you.

That's not right.

I believe that you probably ARE scared to be without him. Scared to be alone. But... He isn't worth your devotion! YOU deserve love and respect. As long as you hold the truth (that he is a slimeball and that you deserve much better) inside, the longer those dark feelings and thoughts will be inside of you.

That is misery ~ either kick him out or hit the road yourself. Move beyond this crummy part of life. You do deserve much better than him! Gentle hugs sent your way.