Bella,

it sounds like you have really made a lot of progress DESPITE of what's happening now. Presently you are in a serious situation that is naturally very anxious, stressing, and depressing. Anyone would feel this way were they in your situation, let alone someone with GAD and OCD. Remember that these disorders are subject to environmental affects so when you are in trouble they flare up dramatically. If you hadn't improved you would be experience the same intensity of symptoms ALL the time, like you used to. Obviously you aren't so remember that you are doing much better. Think of it this way, you are now strong enough to get past this problem whereas before you quite possibly couldn't. Take the fact that you haven't completely fallen apart as a sign that YOU CAN DO THIS, don't focus on how "bad" you are doing.

Right now you might want to remember that other people often get into the same sort of trouble, get past it, and go on with their lives. So will you even though it's going to be much harder for you. I have a month to find a job or I'm going broke and getting kicked out my house. I have GAD, OCD, and GSAD. I very much understand how you feel because I am in a relatively similar situation. I'll get through this and get a job even though it's very scary and sometimes overwhelming. You're not alone, if I can do it then so can you. If you can do it then so can I.

Best wishes