reading what you wrote sounds like you are really really hurt and that the one person you wanted to have validate for you what was going on ... hurt you more even if it was unintentionally

I've only looked at mindfulness a little bit and so far have found it difficult ... I hope it will help more for both of us; but having someone "there for you" is so precious as well especially when your feelings have been dismissed before and when there is great pain involved both physically and emotionally