Thanks everyone and rohag so do I and I hope they answer so i can see how messed up they are. Because apparently THEY dont get how hard this ***** is even when you really want to get better. I wouldnt wish depression on my worst enemy. It stinks when you have a bad week and they beat you down. dont ask me on the good weeks when I do get out? I wonder why that is? Stupid me I am rambling...I wish I had never gotten involved in the mental health system what a bunch of balogna.