I do because I met my soul mate when I was only five years old. Her name was Jessica and I still remember the first time I saw her. I thought she was an angel and I was so nervous talking to her I’d say really dumb things that made absolutely no sense and she said I was funny. We became best friends and we would cry when it was time for one of us to go home so our parents let us stay with each other. It was our love for music that ultimately brought us closer together too and we’d listen to songs and sing them together. Jessica wanted to be a singer and I just wanted to be with her so we were going to be a duo.

To say we were close was an understatement. We were basically attached to each other and wherever one went the other would follow. We slept over each other’s houses all the time and we were like a married couple in some ways. Nobody understood how much we loved each other and some people were jealous as we got older because they didn’t have a love like ours. We were real soul mates and to have that connection – that bond at our age is and was very rare.

She loved poetry and a lot of the classic romance movies with Cary Grant, Rock Hudson, Frank Sinatra and Dean Martin her Mother watched and I secretly did too. I thought if I could write her poetry she would fall in love with me like they did in the movies and it worked and she gave me my first kiss when I was only eight years old. We became even more attached then and we’d hold hands, cuddle and kiss all the time and we’d snuggle when we went to bed.

I was madly in love with her and I would go out of my way to do things to impress her and make her laugh. Some of the things were crazy and I remember climbing the biggest tree in our school one day and when she came out of the toilet to find me she told me it was dangerous and to get down. I got stuck up there because I was too scared to get down and Jessica climbed up the tree herself and helped me down. She asked me why I did it and I told her I was trying to impress her and she said I didn’t have to impress her because she was already in love with me.

When I was at my Grandfather’s house one afternoon Jessica and I were playing catch outside and I accidentally threw the ball on his roof. I climbed up there to get it even though she was telling me not to because it wasn’t safe and she was right. I fell off the roof and nearly broke my left leg. Jessica was hysterical to say the least and I was more worried about her than I was myself. She came up to the Doctor’s with me and she wouldn’t let me out of her sight. I had to walk with crutches for a while and I had a few weeks off school and Jessica had them off with me because she wanted to look after me. When she would get the flu I would get the flu too just so I could take care of her.

I asked Jessica to marry me when I was only fourteen. She said yes and I put a burger ring on her finger. lol When I think about all the times we shared that was without a doubt, the happiest day of my life. Jessica was everything to me and she loved me with all her heart and soul. We had the kind of love most people say only exists in movies but the difference between real life and movies is we don't always have happy endings. She passed away when I was sixteen and my life fell apart.

Without going into too many details I spent almost a whole year in my bedroom crying and I tried to commit suicide three times. I then got a job and got addicted to cocaine and become an alcoholic. A few years later I met a girl called Rachel who saved me from my depression. We become best friend and I was in love with her but she was a lesbian. We were attached to each other like I was with Jessica and I moved into her house with her because she wanted us to be like Will and Grace but the opposite way around. She passed away too and my life fell apart again but I kept it together this time.

I have a new girlfriend now and she is the first woman I have had a proper relationship with since Jessica passed away. Her name is Mandy and she is four years older than me. While we are not as attached to each other as Jessica and I were we are very close and she lives with me. She makes me feel the same way Jessica did and I never loved another woman this much since she passed away. I guess my question is do people believe in the chances of finding a second soul because I think I found mine.