Well, I feel like I learned a whole lot about how you "did" your therapy today and I can definitely relate to your "diversionary tactics." The lengthiness of that list cracked me up and reminded me of one of the classic tests of creativity, which is to simply ask people "how many things can you do with a brick?" People who are more creative can generate many more responses to this question than those who are less creative. So I'd say that your ability to find so many things, including my favorite (the bird poo), to supposedly derail yourself is a reflection of using your creativity to help you approach something that is very difficult.

It seems to me that courage is not so much an event or a quality, but that it is a landscape with many elements and a process of movement towards something better for ourselves. I also think that courage can be in allowing yourself to back off as well as move forward and that what you may be labeling diversionary tactics are in reality your creative ability to continue to allow yourself to move forward, after taking a step back.

Anne