OMG I totally am the same way! I have had to change my weekly appointments around a couple times, so I've had the chance to see a couple of her different clients. And I am always checking them out (and this is SO wrong, but b/c she deals with EDs, I am always checking to see if they are skinnier/prettier than I am, which I know is awful) and like trying to estimate how old they are, to see if I am the youngest one that goes to her, b/c I think of her as being very maternal. And then when she is saying bye to them, I always try and sneakily listen to what she is saying to them/tone of voice. I know it is so bad and this stuff sounds like I am awful, but this is what I do. I remember the first time I was in the waiting room and she was in her office with another client, I heard her laughing with that client and felt like I was being cheated on! And then I know that she works 2.5 days out of the week (the rest of the time I think is at the university she is affiliated with), and so I'll try and estimate how many clients she has besides me. God, it's so sick I know, but I can't help it! And I know she cares about me, but I am always thinking about how I stack up compared to her other clients. And the fact that I am super competitive doesn't help either. SO yeah, I can definetely relate. The girl that is before me probably thinks I am either super creepy or super *****y b/c she saw me checking her out the first couple times before I went into T's office. Now I don't do that b/c I don't want to come off as either creepy or *****y so when she comes out I just concentrate on putting the book I am reading into my bag.