Hey everyone ~

Im just having a terrible lousy time .. the last week has just mentally and emotionally drained me

I really have no support system except for my therapist ( thank god for him)
My husband is just snippy all the time ! Seems nothing I say is right .
I had a long talk with my therapist today about how to finally put myself first in MY life and get to feeling better and begin to learn HOW to do that .. I have always put everyone else first in my life ,, If my husband is in a bad mood of course I Assume its because of me so I beat myself up over it .. self harm , get to thinking " stupid" .

Anyway .. Im mentally and physically exhausted but im determined to finally just work on myself and to hell any of the others in my life that cant understand how they have hurt me and will probably continue too..(until im strong enough to stand up to them,, right now i just start crying anytime I try to tell someone that there words or actions hurt me ) I at least want to finally realize and truly believe " I am a good person ! I deserve to be happy again ! I didnt ask for Bi Polar but I will learn to have a life despite its ridculous roller coaster ways !

I know that this battle is going to be one of the hardest things I will have to do .. But I know that if I dont do this there is no hope for me.

Thanks for reading my rant/whine/*****fest.

Wishing you all some peace ~