I went 3 years SI free and even got to the point eventually i stopped thinking about it with no help did it all alone and was fine with that. A month ago i lost it, i was quite drunk which didn't help and messed up 3 years of hard work. Now i feel like i'm back at square one something goes wrong it's the first thing i turn to and i can't work out how i got through it last time, just can't stop thinking about it now, any tips?