thank you all for your replies. i guess i know i have improved because i haven't fallen apart completely, which probably would have happened if i was in this situation a couple of years ago. i just don't want to lose my progress and hope that once things settle down for me (and oh i hope they will soon) they improve again. but i have been proud of myself for keeping it together as well as i have.

perna, you make a good point. even though i have not made as much progress toward finding a new place as i would like (meaning that i just haven't found one yet), it feels productive just to be looking very proactively. i think that does help.