it will be good to go to college and a distance from mom. she sounds very controlling. i can with some assurity tell you that you'll be ok. you won't be a failure. you will self teach yourself at school about life. my childhood was like i lived in a bubble. my father didn't allow me to learn good coping skills, he demanded good grades, he set ridiculous curfews, he planned for me to marry a senator but be educated. he didn't want me to work married, just be able to talk intellectually with my senator husband. he chose my friends. so i totally understand your delimma.
just hang in there...freedom of choice is coming and with no abusive behavior from mom. 
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