I'm not sure if he's really mad at you, per se... I mean, I feel like he might just be, well, mad. Mad, scared, depressed... And these are coming out in the only way it feels safe -- taking it out on the person he's closest to. It's not really helpful, but he's probably really frustrated and angry with himself if he's blaming himself, and is just lashing out in general.

I'm sorry you can't get more help for your seizures. I guess the ER filled their legal obligation and gave you the basic, necessary care that you needed, but without insurance they can't do anything beyond that.

My friend never found out why she had her seizures either. The doctors couldn't find anything wrong. But she says even today she sometimes still worries about having another.

What would happen if you asked him if you could write him a letter about what's been happening? That way he has full knowledge of it and can expect it. You could also write him a love letter to give to him at the same time.

Sorry I can't be more help. Stay safe and take care