It's kind of complicated. I do very well at work. I can do that better than anything in my life. So, my doctor is helping me by keeping me off medication and overall avoiding a full blown diagnosis. He feels that anything else he could do for me includes strong medicine that risks everything. I would lose my job and be out of everything if any of this were to spill into my "work life".. I know it's unhealthy and very risky, but I'm just not sure if it's worth it anymore.