Thanks zbmom and Sunangel ..
I'm sure I'm going to fall on my face numerous times until I learn "how" to put myself first. It is something I have to do somehow someway. I'm feeling really manic today ,, My mind is racing like crazy ... My meds just harent helping me today .. I guess I just need to ride it out ... hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Wishing you all some Peace and Love <3