Hi granite! I think it is more a reflection of what T saw in your writing last week, she sees better where you are coming from, how your mind works. And she may see mindfulness as something you are already doing naturally - that is what the story about when you went up the stairs indicated to me, and how you felt in the room, your heightened state of awareness in the room.

From what you have said of your background, it would be normal for you to think of any change as loss, even getting a LITTLE better would mean losing T, but it doesn't. I have ALWAYS panicked about that myself, I think there is a thread somewhere about it. I am FINALLY over it, but it took T a while to convince me. One, we have a LOOOONNNGG way to go. Two, like for teeth braces, there will be a long retainer band period after the braces, to make sure you stay straight! We are all in this together.