morethingswrong

some people do use bipolar as an excuse for their behavior and this is unfortunate. it just depends on how honest you want to be with yourself and whether you are willing to take responsibility for your actions or not.

now another way to reframe it is to look at bipolar as the reason for being overly emotional. i know for me, with my illness, i have bp and ptsd. i would become very angry and judgmental of myself for being so emotional. crying over burnt toast i would call it. i thought i was ridiculous for not being able to contain myself. but put in the context of my mental health disorder, well then my moods made sense. it wasnt something i could control, at least not until i learned a whole lotta new coping skills and unfortunately i required medication as well.

as for if you will ever feel ok or are you cursed to be forever on the roller coaster? i lived that way for many, many, many years. i tried anything and everything to get better for decades. finally i crashed so hard i had to go the medication route. it took a couple years to find the right med, but we finally did and now i do feel ok and i am finally off that roller coaster. i imagine that this is how normal people live. there are no more ups and downs, no more cycles, no more losing it. like total stability. still some anxiety but i am working on that in therapy. but that bipolar craziness is gone.