Maybe blowing up at family was a good thing if it's something you have been holding in for a long time.

Maybe never being the same again is also a good thing......sometimes we have to take a step in a new direction in order to make the change necessary to deal with the past.

But none of this is a good enough excuse to bring your ED back into your life. You need to focus on what your next step needs to be without the ED & focus on that.....making a break without bringing your ED back into your life can show you that there are other options that work just as well in your coping with situations.

Be safe & know that sometimes the things we do are necessary & even if we don't do them in the most diplomatic way, it's probably because we've been pushed too far in the first place & that's an OK reaction given the circumstances.

Care for & love yourself for who you are.