light bulb moment...more like flashlight in my eyes moment. when your codependency is so strong and overwhelming that you are shutting everyone down around you because they are so tired of dealing with you....what do you do???

i'll give you/myself a hint...

you start replacing old habits with new habits..

and you thank God that he has placed someone in your life who is willing to let you know what's going on way before they get so tired of it they bail.

please please please let God and I make this better before i wreck this amazing gift...i'm totally freaked out that i do horribly distructive things to my relationships on a daily, hell HOURLY basis. it's frustrating and scary and i want to make this better in every way possible as soon as possible.

i am so lost