(((((Moonbeam2))))))
It's ok, you are having trouble with containing your anxiety. You have found this site very calming and supportive and a place to release your thoughts. The other thing that is happening that you havent realized yet is what PC means to you is a quiet comfort. It is a place to come, just for you, where you can share your thoughts instead of keeping them pent up. Apparently you really need to do that. Coming to PC and reading posts and then participating is very helpful for your brain. When we use our frontal lobe of our brains in a situation like PC it can help us slow down the activity and in doing so slow down and calm our brains.

I am not sure what type of bipolar you have but sometimes with bipolar the brain can race and build up on the emotional scale or even dip to a more depressive stage, that is why you got very tired and even tearful. You have discovered that you are enjoying PC and it can calm and make you feel stable and have your own space.
And it is nice to talk to others that share your concerns, it can be so comforting to hear someone say, yes, me too. In hearing that you don't feel so alone and your are more encouraged in that.

Make sure you keep your next appointment with your therapist and make sure you bring this event up. It is important to know you just learned something, you need your own time out, PC has helped you with that. It is also good to pick up reading, that too will help your brain calm down and allow you a time out.

When events like this happen it is another opportunity to learn something about yourself.

((((((((Moonbeam2))))))) see what you did at the end of your post, that is something else you needed. But you recovered because your husband and son made sure you got the attention you needed. It is never too late to tell them again that you really appreciated their patience and kindness and that was very supportive of them.

Open Eyes