Dear T,

I haven't seen you for a few weeks and I feel really disconnected from you now. I know you weren't able to fit me in til next week because of your vacation and busy schedule but now I'm scared to come back. Should I come back? Should I tell you about my mini-meltdown while you've been away or should I stay quiet like I always do because I'm not sure if I can trust you and you feel like a stranger to me now. I'm scared you'll give up on me if you knew more than I tell you. I measure my words so carefully because I've always been the strong one and I don't want you to see me as weak. I feel really alone and conflicted right now and I don't feel I can reach out to you