I've had to have a few "upside the head" moments as well.

I know it's VERY difficult to see self in a light that you've never seen...and not a pleasant one, even possibly disturbing.

However, Forest, before you get anymore upset by this, I really think you should examine if this interferes with your life to a degree that you're not comfortable with. If so, you really should see a professional so that when they state their opinion about "the problem", they can follow it with, "you're gonna be just fine." It helps immensely.

I wish you more than well.

KD