today i had the most difficult session. my T kept probing for details of what happens when i dissociate. I was the most scared that i have ever been with her. I wanted to change the subject and tried. I'm not sure why it was difficult. Its hard to tell someone how you break down when you come home.. i receed into a shell and the angry me comes up. why am i so scared to share? things only come up when im at home.