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Originally Posted by morethingswrong
I have been reading a million posts on here .. Yes it has helped me to try and understand that I am not alone and so many struggle with the same stuff ... Heres my problem ..
My husband isnt supportive at all... He has his own problems with his work and a workers comp injury and surgery ( long story) Anyway ... I know that some of the things I do definatly are a result to having Bipolar ...
Now I dont want to offend anyone but I personally wonder if I will start using my Bi Polar as an " excuse" for being overly emotional ..
Has anyone else ever felt like this?
I know now because of therapy since March of this year that I have been Bi Polar pretty much all my life. I guess getting the diagnosis is good and bad .
I guess I just wonder ... " Will I ever feel ok ?"
Or will I constantly be on this roller coaster from hell ?
Thanks ....
Wishing you all some peace and love ~  |
A lot of times, Bipolar does determine my behavior when I am manic. I just cannot control myself. I get eurphoric, pressured speech, psyhosis, and sometimes, I lash out at people.
I think I finally found the correct meds. that are helping me stay as stable as I can be and it has been a long time to get to the right med cocktail.
I denied my BP with my old pdoc because I was put on an antidepressant and was totally manic 100% of the time. I was on Paxil and I told him I was not manic, and that Paxil just made me feel good.
Then I embraced my diagnosis and am in the process of learning coping skills especially when I lash out on people. My therapist is trying to teach me to write down what I want to say to the people or person who I want to lash out at and get it out that way. She told me to go read it in a few days and if I still feel that way, I should try a nice way to handle it.
Once you embrace your diagnosis, you will be able to try to learn some coping skills to help your behavior when this disorder is messing with you.
Good luck to you and I really hooe you are able to accept the fact that this disorder is part of your life and has to be managed with meds and therapy. ((((hugs))))