Last night was my boyfriends grandmothers birthday. I kept forgetting. Well once he got off work we went out to eat with his whole family. On the way to the restaurant he told me about a nightmare he had the night before. He only told me at that time that I had a seizure in the dream. I asked him basically if he was upset and stressed because of these seizures and he said yes. I admitted to the seizures causing me to be depressed and he said he knew. He says his mood was getting worse because he felt helpless. He couldn't stop the seizures and he couldn't make me happy no matter how hard he tried. I apologized. It was true...
I've known that the seizures made me depressed but I didn't realize it was that obvious. I try to hide my emotions but I'm not good at it I guess. I told him I would work on the depression and that I have been. I have been working on accepting this. We didn't have much time to talk since the restaurant was only up the road. We went in and ate dinner with his parents. Everything went well, he and I shared a meal and things seemed to be back to normal. We went home and things were great.
I asked him, once everyone else was asleep more about his dream. He told me that I was talking to him and then I just fall. His parents were in the dream and he started freaking out telling them "I don't know what to do" (his parents don't know about the seizures since they started the night we took mushrooms) He said he was crying and freaking out and when I came back from the seizure he couldn't calm down. He was still freaking out. So we talked about it a little more. Unfortunately talking about it seemed to trigger something since when I got up to walk black started bleeding in and I started to lose feeling in my body. I know this feeling by now, it's either get close to the floor and try to focus or let it take over and fall to the floor and wake up with people standing over me. I'm trying to get this figured out. It seems to work most of the time. I just have to sit or lay as soon as possible and try to keep focus. I hope it keeps working until I can see the doctor.
Well we are doing better now. I apologized for being so moody and letting this make me depressed and told him that I would work on this. He said he would work on snapping on me like he has been. We had a good night. Things so far seem to be back to normal. I hope so. I tried a different approach to it and worded everything just right and it seemed to work a little better.
Thank you for all of the advice, it really helped and now he and I are back on good terms! Thank you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!