Been taking it on and off for years.

Its the only one that helps me, ativan makes me too dissasociated I find. That may be placebo, I dunno, but I avoid it for that reason.

Problem is, the doctor im seeing is extremely hesitant to give it to me and is convinced that I shouldnt need it since I am taking the effexor xr 150.

I just started therapy, and am wound tighter than a screw on a circus ride.

right now i take 0.5 mg, and Im having to take upwards of 4 of them before I feel normal again.

also note I do not take them every day, usually for about the equivalent of a week and a half every month, spread out though not all together.

I would like something stronger, I understand the effects that it can have, such as the addictiveness.

But right now with starting therapy, I am getting vicious flashbacks and am just scared to death..

I want to find a way to communicate this to my doctor so he understands that while he is hesitant my quality of life is dropping like flies. I havent been to work because of this in a week and a half.

I am constantly upset because I hate taking them, because of the fear my doctor has instilled in me, and Im constantly upset because I feel like i shouldnt need them like he said, but sometimes I do.

Can you go higher dosage with these? Or something else in addition maybe?