as others have pointed out, you dont make it clear whether your status is a result of your relationship with your husband. if it is, are your ready to make some changes in that area? if so, contact a domestic abuse shelter for recommendations and support on how to get out of the relationship.

if not, then you need to start looking for what you can do to start making some changes to your lifestyle. instead of letting the children entertain themself electronically, wht can you do together. perhaps get some board games and play those toghter. go for a walk. childrens museum. the library. swimming. the park. do things that will get you out of the house doing things together. think of some craft projects you can do. play video games or watch tv with them. go to the movies.

you have listed things you enjoyed doing inthe past. what is it going to take to start doing those things again? how can you bring those things into your life? set those goals and work toward them.