Thanks Sunangel ....

I really like the idea of writing things down and just waiting a few days... Part of that is my problem " I have no patience " altho I must say since I saw my T on Thursday ( the day I decided for once to put myself first ) I have found altho my mind is racing I havent felt like really " talking " .. especially to my husband .. which is what he often yelled at me a few months ago when we were fighting horribly ... " why cant you just shut up" Yes rude rude rude !!!! we dont fight like that anymore . But since thursday I just havent felt like talking to him at all. When I have to say something I make it as short and sweet as possible . He has asked me twice since then if "Im ok" i just reply " I'm fine" Im pretty certain hes confused since normally I " feel the need " to have conversations with him. oh well I say let him be confused ,, God knows I am confused LOL ... I am getting closer to being able to say " I'm Bipolar and KNOW it "
I despise yet adore the medications and Im still getting them changed ... typical I suppose .

I love reading your posts on here as they have given me so much insite into this illness. so.... THANKYOU !

Wishing you peace and love <3