Hello, la bella vita. Others can like you because they see what you refuse to acknowledge or choose to ignore. Is professional help an option for you?

http://depression.about.com/cs/psych.../cognitive.htm
http://psychcentral.com/lib/2009/15-...e-distortions/
http://psychcentral.com/lib/2009/fix...e-distortions/

http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/...-part-the-cure
http://thoughtmedicine.com/2010/04/t...nge-your-life/
http://psychcentral.com/blog/archive...-inner-critic/
http://www.recoveryhope4all.com/negative_talk.html
http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/...essing-you-out
http://www.psychologytoday.com/print/48485

You have work to do. Good luck.