Hey. Sometimes it helps to talk through stuff... To know we are not alone, that other people go through similar stuff, to know that people care.

I'm sorry you are feeling so low :-( I've been feeling a bit low myself over the last week or so :-( But I think I'm starting to come right. I'm so glad... I was worried I was on a down hill slide. Lots of stuff was happening for me. That time of the month, fighting off being sick, feeling so very tired... It is nearing the end of winter for you guys, eh? That is a drag in itself... And then there is always other stuff going on too...

Guilt is a hard one. It is probably the emotion that I struggle the most in dealing with too :-( Guilt... Sometimes I think I have a generalised guilt around being alive :-( And that guilt... Just attaches to various objects or things that happen...

Growing up... If I think I need to 'grow up' it isn't so helpful for me. I feel depressed / worse just at the thought... My guess would be that you don't like feeling this way and if you had the choice you wouldn't feel this way. Knowing or seeing what to do to come out of it... Well that is really very hard. It is a hard place to be in :-(

I think you want to be a good person
(Whether you think you are a good person or not it seems that you want to be a good person, you would like to be one)
And that is something about you :-)
Because some people don't care about being a good person. They are happy not being a good person.
So that is one thing about you :-)
I think having the desire to be a good person... Makes you a good person in a way :-)

I'm not so sure who I am either... Sometimes it can help to... List things that you like. Things that you enjoy. Things that are important to you (like being a good person). I think those things (the combination of things) is what makes each person unique :-) Different people have different things they want to be. Different things are important to them. Different things are enjoyable to them.

> My daughter has a huge knot on her head! How did it get there!......I'm a horrible person, she must have feel or bumped it and I wasn't paying attention, then when she cried I must have ignored her.

You know... Kids do hurt themselves sometimes. I don't think it is possible to prevent all their hurts. If you heard her and you were able to attend to her... You would have. Somtimes... Energy can be hard. Do you think you need some support in looking after her? There isn't any shame in that... Looking after a kid can be hard work... I don't know that I could do it... Or is it just that you worry about it... I don't know...

re your pain... Would it help to have a good cry? Sometimes that helps me.

Can you do something nice for yourself. Have a nice hot bubblebath or something like that?

I'm sorry things are hard for you at the moment :-(