Great thread! I try to control my movements as much as possible. Early on I did discuss with T the fact that I always grab my water bottle when I am uncomfortable and that I wanted to stop doing so because I should not need a security blanket, but then I wondered if maybe she needed me to reach for the bottle so she could better read how I was feeling. At that point she gave me permission to not worry about what she needed and only worry about what I needed at any given time. This past week I twisted the bottle cap so hard I broke it.

I have thought about switching seats one day as there are lots of other options in her office. Sometimes I wonder what she would do if I tried facing away from her one day. I might feel like I could talk more freely if I didn't see her looking at me all the time. So self-conscious.