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Thanks everyone for your replies.
Today, as many of you know, is the year marker of my decision to stop self harming/attempting suicide.
So far I haven't done a lot today... Apart from get a message from a girl I don't even know, saying that my partner's been sending her disturbing, sexual messages... Now, I know Dave well and what she's told me about what he's been sending her, I know 98% he wouldn't send. He's just not into it! But the other 2% says to me well how does she know my name, that I'm a model and how does she know that I'm his partner?
So I'm stuck with some doubt on that front, but for today I'm not going to let it get to me until I know the facts. For now, it's a lie to me, from a jealous little girl who thinks that her lies will just make me leave Dave at the click of a finger. I'm not a compulsive person, so I'll find out the facts first. I did cry because I'm scared. I don't want to lose Dave and I feel that maybe he would be doing it because I'm not good enough for him. I've always had that doubt. I cried because I just thought why? Why would someone want to mess up the one day that I'm meant to be happy this year? And also because I just feel hopeless and I don't know what to do.
For now though, I'm gonna try to relax and enjoy my day of freedom from self harm.
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