Hello, I completely understand what you are going through as I am going through this as well.. Its hell.. I just want to give up my life sometimes... If you need someone to get these thoughts off your chest, am here for you.. as my thoughts are reaaly disturbing as well and of sexual nature.. maybe knowing that am not alone will help me.. I just wish I will forget about these thoughts but I don't and it is always hunting me.. making my life miserable...