Well done for sharing that with us on here - I am so sorry you are feeling so bad about yourself right now and just 16 years old too. I can relate to much of what you say and although changes don't happen overnight, those changes can and do happen, but sometimes we need to be patient.

Do you have a T? Do you have a family member you can talk to?

This is such a great site, I have found understanding and support from such a wonderful bunch of people - welcome to PC and I really hope you can share more with us and that you feel support from here too.

Take care - Soup